Fidelity

The topic of fidelity intrigues me. When we first hear the word “fidelity” you know that in a marital sense it means faithfulness, loyalty, consistency.. all things you want in a spouse and in your marriage. I loved a definition someone said though that fidelity is “true to what is, not what you want it to be”. That means imperfection! Not that that means to expect unfaithfulness, no loyalty or inconsistency, but that no one is perfect and that equals trials and hardships in marriage. Marriage is hard work, but it’s worth it. It is so sad to me how normalized many types of infidelity are in our society. Infidelity can be fantasy, visual, romantic, sexual, and emotional. Many of these things are very common whether it’s a movie, book, online relationships through hobbies such as video games. Our society embraces these things and normalizes them to the point that people think they are totally okay and aren’t adding to the marital unhappiness. If only we could all see that these things are pulling us apart and completely adding to our trials. Our marriages are worth so much more. They should be cherished and we should cleave to our spouses. I know I want that for my marriage.

Charity

Starting on page 110 in Goddard’s book we read about charity and choice. We must choose our actions, feelings and thoughts. We can choose to see others as the natural man does or we can choose to see others the way Jesus sees us. I love the reminder at the end of the page that says “we are all dependent upon His charity.” Having charity for others is not always an easy task or second nature for us, yet we are so dependent on Christ’s charity towards us. Now if that doesn’t at least make you step back and ponder I don’t know what will. I know it caused me to think a lot. I reread that same sentence many times before moving on.

I also love (from page 111) this insight from Elder Max Caldwell of the Seventy that says “the phrase ‘love of Christ’ might have meaning in three dimensions: Love for Christ, Love from Christ, and Love like Christ.” Thinking about charity in these three separate ways helps us see how all-encompassing it is. Charity is the most important quality, it helps us become the closest to Christ we can be and helps us feel so much love from our Savior and Heavenly Father. Our Savior wants all these things for us. The chapter has the words of a beautiful hymn:

“At the throne I intercede; For thee ever do I plead.

I have loved thee as thy friend, With a love that cannot end. Be obedient, I implore, Prayerful, watchful, evermore, And be constant unto me, That thy Savior I may be.”

After all He has done for us, the least we can do is try our hardest to have charity for one another. Elder Caldwell also expresses to us that “charity sustains us in every need and influences us in every decision.” Having charity not only helps us to be more like Christ, but it helps us in our everyday life, in our interactions with others and in making decisions. What a blessing it is to have His guidance in our lives. When it comes to marriage, we must have charity for our spouse and choose to love them first. Waiting for love will not benefit either of you. “Our partners will love us because we first love them”. 

The Law of Consecration

In the book "Drawing Heaven into your Marriage", Goddard shares many times that he wishes he had realized many of these principles and lessons earlier in his marriage. I really appreciate the lessons I am learning from his examples. In chapter 6 (page 100), he shares that

"It is common for discontented partners to lament, "I just can't tolerate the loneliness in this marriage. I must get out in order to thrive.""

and

"I think that is how Jesus felt in the Garden of Gethsemane. “Is there any way out? I don't think I can bear it!" Yet He did bear it. And in bearing it, He saved us. Had He not honored His covenant over His peace and comfort, all of us would be everlastingly lost."

I feel like this is all too common in marriage, including mine, where life gets chaotic and you just don’t know how you will make it through. I know without a doubt that it is worth it to stick it out, hand everything over to God and everything will be okay. I think about our children and the children that wouldn’t be here had we decided to call it quits after our first big fight and I can hardly stand the thought. Their lives matter and my marriage matters. Life isn’t always easy and marriage is hard work, but keeping that eternal perspective makes it all worth it. I love the quote on page 101 from Brother Kent Brooks that reminds us to “persevere through moments of unhappiness, stress, disappointment and tests of our patience and love for our partners.” We are not promised perfect, unflawed, easy marriages, but we are promised eternal glory by following Christ’s example, following the commandments and practicing consecration in our marriages.  

Goddard titled a section in chapter 6 “Our Whole Souls as an Offering” which reminded me of David A. Bednar’s devotional talk from January 5, 1999 titled “Your Whole Souls as an Offering Unto Him”. He touches on being “diligent in developing strong minds to the principles of sacrifice and consecration” which is exactly what I feel that Goddard is teaching us as well. It is so important, especially in marriage, to learn these principles and make a commitment endure to the end.  

We all have faults and we will have perpetual conflicts that we will have to live with likely for the rest of our married lives. How we choose to handle and react to these though are what make our married lives either a positive or negative experience. We can CHOOSE to love and lift up our spouse, look past their faults and realize that we too have faults. Marriage is not about being perfect, but realizing that both husband and wife are perfectly imperfect and can rise up together in Christ.  

Pride

Pride. Now pride can mean many different things, but in the end none of them are good and all should be avoided. Pride in general is a dangerous path that is hard to get away from. In a talk from President Ezra Taft Benson, he states that "pride is a sin that can readily be seen in others but is rarely admitted in ourselves". This is why it is so dangerous. We are so prideful that we can't even see it. We are so deep in pride that in order to get out of it we must hand ourselves over to God, repent and truly change. 

Now in a marriage, pride can really get in the way. Pride leaves no room caring for your spouse or turning towards them. In order for a marriage to work and work well we have to learn to communicate and give 100% to our spouse. But, for how important communication is, it sure is hard to talk about and improve! I feel like it is a touchy subject because no one wants to feel blamed or inadequate. The other thing about marriage and communication is that it is ever changing and needs to be reevaluated regularly. What used to work may not anymore and you won’t know what will work in the future. Each person communicates differently which poses the challenge of differing opinions and miscommunication. Unfortunately this fear and stubbornness can easily turn into pride and does not help keep the doors open for communication with your spouse. 

 I’m not perfect, my husband isn’t perfect, but we’re working on our communication and trying our hardest to understand each other in order to effectively get things done, draw closer together, make decisions together and reach together. Key word is TOGETHER. Communication is not a one sided, one person thing. We can help each other to stay humble and have humility by encouraging and lifting each other up, praying and reading scriptures together and really think about the things we say and interpret beforehand. I'm thankful that this class has opened my eyes to this again.